114. Strange dream of mine

So I had a very strange dream. It was the day that the Australian citizens was going to vote for their own preferred party. After you finish voting, you slide the voting paper through the hole into this long rectangular cardboard box. Well, this box was actually a transparent glass box. But not just that. If you wanted to vote for Labor then you have to put it in the 'Labor box', and if you voted for Liberal, then you have to place it in the 'Liberal box'. These boxes were CLEAR AS DAY!! I was seeing everyone sliding the papers into these boxes, and the papers were piling up slowly. I have to say... Liberal was on a lead...

Why did I even dreamt about this when I don't even care abiut these political events?... Very strange dreams indeed.

113.

I am about to do something that I have never imagine doing ever in my life. I never thought about it before and didn't care. But who would have thought that it turnt out something so important to me. You never know the path you're heading towards to. You never know what's gonna happen in 10years time, or 2years or even 2 months. It still surprises me. Like how, and why? Why me? What did I do to deserve this? Is it really ok for me to accept this?...

112. Want to be happy FOR REAL

I really want to stay positive and optimistic. I know my flaws and I know them very well. It's really hard to change or remove bad habits, but at least it's worth a try. I want to stop overthinking negatively so much in my life. Because of this I always feel depressed and stressed. 

No matter what obstacles hits me, I'll try to endure it. I'll try not to let it affect me so much. I will try. I want to be happy. I really want to be happy. So I need to change. It won't be easy, but hey, let's take it slow and easy. It's all about the baby steps. 

Even though your mum screams, or yell, or say some cruel things about you, try to endure it. If you fight back, you'll make it worse. You'll agitate your mum more. And you don't want that because either way, she won't listen to you and spits more at your face. Listen to her, and speak nicely. Or else, just listen to her and say nothing. When she wants you to speak, speak nicely. You need to change Bubbles... 

Change for the better...

111. Can't handle this shit...

Why does she always pick a fight with me? ESPECIALLY WITH LITTLE THINGS?! I DON'T GET HER PROBLEM. WHY DOES SHE ALWAYS PUT HER ANGER OUT ON ME?! WHY FRICKEN ME ALL THE TIME? WHAT IS HER PROBLEM? BECAUSE IM THE YOUNGEST OF THE FAMILY? BECAUSE I'M A FEMALE?

Fricken hell... We have been going good lately, and I even said that I wanna take her out to the city. But not anymore. I hate when these things happen. You just completely ruin the mood.

JUST SERIOUSLY WHAT HAVE I DONE THIS TIME?! IT'S JUST A LITTLE THING, NOT EVEN A PROBLEM. FUCKEN HELL....

110. FOODS

When you love foods, and your brain tells you to stop overeating... TT^TT I love foods, and I can't help myself. TT^TT It sucks when you were going so well with your diet, but you didn't keep it all the way... TT^TT I will never be able to reach my summer body