I miss two people in my life. They're both my old friends. Although, at this point, I don't think one of them consider me as a friend anymore. I think that's a given, considering how we never contacted each other or seen each other for years now. I still miss Vubs... I'm such a coward for not reaching to her. I guess I'm just scared of what might happen between us or to other people... If there is a chance that I can still meet her, I would like to take that chance. I'm just not brave enough to reach out to her.
I miss my other old friend, Shirley. She moved on. She stopped hanging out with our group and is hanging out with new friends. I mean, I'm glad for her. I'm glad she has someone who makes her feel welcome and happy. It feels different now whenever I catch up with her. We don't really talk about our personal lives anymore. We both seemed to close ourselves with each other. We don't tell each other things anymore, like having secrets. Again, I'm such a coward. I think about these people that I miss but I never reach out to them... Why? Why do I do that though? I guess I don't want to look like an idiot or a crazy 'friend' who seems to care so much about them when they don't care about me.
Now that I'm 23 years old, I feel sad that my friendship group is getting smaller and smaller... I know I have very few close friends atm and I really do cherish their friendship. I'm just sad that most of my good friends aren't as close to me as before. It must be something that I have done. I don't know. I'm just feeling depressed... and I know I shouldn't when it is my birthday today. I wish I could celebrate my birthday with my good, old friends. I miss you guys, Shirley and Vubs.
