I haven't been able to concentrate, focus during class or at home. I always study and do my homework but I cbb to do it last week, so I completely slacked off last week. I felt tired all the time even though I wasn't doing anything much. I've been gaining a lot of weight and usually I would always know my limit and watch out for myself but I felt hopeless and just wanted to eat my soul out. I just ate everything until I was full. AND EVERY FRICKIN DAMN NIGHT I CAN NEVER GET A PROPER SLEEP. I always sleep so late and have these bad thoughts haunting me. Reminding me of who I am as a person... as a terrible person.
I haven't mentioned this to anyone before, not even to SS. But, everyday I would always feel this quick and slight pain in my heart where it randomly appears and gives me a quick sting. It happens evrryday and once. After the sting, I would grab onto my chest and think what just happened there and why is it happening everyday. But I doubt it's anything. So I didn't tell anyone.
Because I have been feeling this terrible for more than 2weeks, my mum gave me this pill of hers. It's this medicine called Lexotan where it used for people who have anxiety, tension and agitation. It reduces the normal stresses that you experience in your daily life.
I feel that 2016 is not my year. I feel a lot worse than lasf year.
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