I recently started feeling lonely. I realised how distant I am from my best friend. She has so many things going on in her life. She made a new friend and spends the majority of her time with her new friend. She goes shopping, internet cafe, out for lunch/dinner with her. They spend every day calling each other to play games.
I don't have many friends to begin with. I realised without my best friend, I feel so incredibly and utterly alone. I... I don't have anyone I can talk with so comfortably. Who can I go to, to share my smiles, laughs and random, silly jokes with? Who can I go to, to share my secrets, pain, low days? I don't have anyone like that except my best friend...
I started to miss my old friends back in high school. Why am I thinking of them now? I guess I took their friendship for granted. I feel so, so alone.
Do I need to find a new friend now? To keep me company? I don't know what to do anymore.
I guess I'll stay alone for now. This is me overthinking now but I don't think anyone would want me as their friend. I'm not worth the company. Not worthy enough to be a friend.
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