I realised that I am a very bad daughter...............
I was in the car today with my mum after doctor appointment....... And my mum called my brother by phone call and the way she speaks to him........ She treats him so nicely.... And speaks to him so nicely.......
I realised my mum never talked to me like that by phone call.... and I was jealous....
Which lead me to realise that I am a very bad daughter...... Because the way I talk to her as a friend and how I don't show her respect.... Thats why she always use that annoying tone on me and find everything about me annoying and mad...........
I realise I never listen to her like my brother..... I'm not loyal to her like my brother.....
I'm not kind to her like my brother.......
No wonder she hates me........... And gets angry at me all the time......... And favourites my brother........ And asks him if he ate anything, or need anything, or wanna buy him anything.........
She treats him like a prince..........
The bond that my brother and mother share.............. Sighhhhhhhh
Im stressed and depressed because of my family relationships............
And im depressed that I can't hang out a lot with my friends because of my work schedule......
I feel bad...... I haven't gone out with Erica.... Not even once.... I feel bad.....
We planned to go out after HSC.... But we didn't and I miss her already.........
I miss Yuki too......... But we never contact each other........ But I know from my heart, we are inseparable in spirit and that we are always thinking of each other even when we don't contact each other. ^^
Man I miss my friends............
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