21. Last Day

Today is the last day where we have uni together. It's sad.......
It's only the first semester and time flies so fast. It has only been more than 3 months and I have hopelessly fell in love with someone. I will miss him so much. I wanted to tell him that. I really wanted to and I will.

I know that today is our last day, but I definitely know that it's not our last meeting. We planned to go to vivid next week with everyone, and that will be the day where I will confess to him. Even if he does not accept me, I won't be too depressed about it because I will be proud that I had the courage to confess to him. Just telling him about my feelings will make my chest feel a lot lighter. The weight in my chest will be lifted.... But I sure am nervous about it. Confessing to someone you like is VERY HARD AND STRESSFUL!!!

I am scared that I won't have the guts to say it but I just know that I have to say it.... I just hope I don't chicken out on the day. Sighhhh.......

Few hours ago while I was trying to download some songs, I saw that he texted me. He texted me 12:59 in the morning. Yep that's the exact time he texted me. I realised that he was a lot more initatives this week but it was only about studies-related and the conversation was very short. But for the first time ever, he kept talking with me. Like we were having an actual conversation outside of uni. The conversation lasted for 30minutes. BUT I COULD TELL YOU THAT, THAT WAS THE LONGEST CONVERSATION WE EVER HAD!!!!!! Our conversation would only last 2minutes? Maximum was 10minutes? Sighhh.....

But during our conversation, he asked me more questions this time. Felt like he wanted to keep talking with me and I was freaking out!!!!! I couldn't believe I was still staying in conversation with him. In the middle of our conversation, he said, "This is random but I find it fun to tease you"
WHATTTT????!!! We were talking about games and about our exam, then suddenly, this!???
I replied, "Huhhh. いや. This is why r u a bully". What he replied next shocked me the most but made me feel so happy.

"かわいいとおもいますよ"

It was the first time I have seen him compliment someone and that person was me. The first time he has ever compliment me...... I felt so happy that I went crazyyyy~~~ I couldn't help myself but jump in the air and scream!!!! No, that didn't happened but it did, in the inside ^^. I texted him back, naturally as I could.

"やめって. ☺️☺️"

We still talked from there but my heart was jumping in joy! @><@ I couldn't stop thinking about what he had said to me. I never thought I could talk to him for this long. I thought he will eventually end our conversation as always but no, he kept asking me questions. ^^

It's very hard for me to read guys mind, especially my crush!!!! My crush is the most confusing human being of all. I CANNOT TELL WHETHER HE'S INTERESTED IN ME OR JUST BEING FRIENDLY!!!! I always thought it was friendly gesture but my friends kept telling me that he's interested but I said, "No.... I don't think so....."

But since he complimented me.... my heart is telling me that he's interested in you. OMGGGGGG.
I AM GOING CRAZY. I AM IN LOVE!!!

I am stupidly in love.