55. Mad

I am mad right now. I am very mad that I cannot try to understand anything at the moment.
Ever since my mum came back, she's been nagging about me and partner. She says these rude and bad comments about my partner and it really hurts me. It hurts me because my partner has done nothing wrong. She dislikes him. For no valid reason.

She says these comments and it hurts me.... a lot...... I hate it..... My partner is a very good guy and she say these bad things about him.... it hurts me.......

Now I am sad........

I told my special someone about it and he thought it was best for me to go home early so that I could make a good impression towards my mum, but no.... my mum still dislikes him..... I don't understand.
My special someone told me not to argue against my mum and never break ties with my family. He would understand why my parents would be so worried about me because I'm their only daughter and I'm dating for the first time... My partner is an understanding guy.... I remember the time where I lied to my dad that I was meeting with a friend, and I told him about it, and he scolded me.... He didn't want me to lie to my family.... He's a good guy..... I'm just not a good girl..........

Sigh.....

I remember when my mum was supportive and told me to hurry up and date him already but now that I am, she completely changed her whole perspective of him. She dislikes him now.

It hurts and it hurts so bad...... I feel that if something ever does happen between my special someone and I, it will because of my family.

My special someone told me that my parents don't know anything about him, and that they never met him before so of course they would be worried.... we agreed that soon, soon in the future that he will meet my parents and just give it time.

It sucks.......

Is there something wrong to love a person? It's sad there are people in this world where they can't love someone they love, or marry someone they love. Whether they love same gender, or people who are older, or younger than them, or have taboo relationships, or have different backgrounds.

*Note: I am calmed down now. It's been half an hour now... I haven't published this post straightaway... I was listening to this song repeatedly called, "Like I'm Gonna Lose You" by Meghan Trainer and John Legend. This songs kinda relates to me. I'm gonna love my special someone with all my love because who knows... how much we'll have time together... I honestly want him to be my first and last bf ever in my life. There's no one else like him. He is all I want... Now that I am calm... I'm gonna try to reconcile with mum. I wish everything turns out well in the future.*