23. Break

Two nights after that night, I had a dream about him. We were both hanging out alone together, and I forgot what I did, but I did something that made his statement very direct and clear.

"You should stop doing that since we're friends".

I forgot what I did, but maybe I was showing him something on my phone, or maybe I said something... but whatever I did, was an act of being 'couple-ly-ish'?  

That night when I told him my feelings, I remember clearly that he told me that I needed to be more selfish. 

Well... in my dreams, I guess you can call it that I was being selfish, if I was being 'couple-ly'. Since I knew I how he feels about me, and he knows I how I feel about him, I guess I didn't act as a friend towards him in my dreams. 

When I woke up my from my dream, I realised that I shouldn't burden and pressure him. I shouldn't try to contact him as much since we're only just friends. Since we're friends, it's alright to not as contact him as much, since we were like that from the beginning. Nothing should change between us, because we are just friends. I only wanted him to know about my feelings, and that's it. If I start to contact him more, or contact him everyday, I will only bother him. I will only be selfish... and be annoying to him. 

So... it's alright to not contact him?...

It doesn't mean I will ignore him because NO!! I can't ignore him because we are still friends....

I should just let everything the way it use to be. And this is how it's gonna be. 

Just friends.