I really like you. I really do like you. I want to say 'I love you' but it's too early for that. When the time is right, I will definitely say it. I would love to say 'I love you' to you.
I miss you. A lot. I think about you 24/7. I wonder if you think about me too... I wonder if you miss me too...
I'm not sure what I'm doing is satisfying for you, or what I'm doing seems enough... I wish you could tell me things... or anything...
We only talk once a day and that's fine because it's a big improvement. I also want to give you space and some time to yourself but... Aren't you interested in talking to me? Or even curious about me? Or maybe I'm just thinking too much... TT^TT
I miss you... even though it's been technically a week since we saw each other now.
Sometimes, I wonder if I'm a good girlfriend... Am I treating you as a good girlfriend?... Should I put more effort? Or am I just annoying or clingy?...
I'm scared... even though this is our first relationship together... I'm scared... We both don't know what it's like to be in a relationship and we're both trying... we're still trying to get use to this 'couple-ly relationship'. But the number 1 thing that I'm scared of is that we will eventually stop communicating with each other once I start uni, or when you start working... I don't want to lose contact with you. I don't want to... I'm trying... I'm trying the best as I can...
Sometimes, I'm scared that you'll get bored of me... that you'll eventually won't like me anymore and leave me... I'm trying...
Sometimes, I don't know what I'm doing is right or not... I always think about when is the best time to text you... I'm scared that you're busy, or I interrupted during your important business, or something... I always want to talk you but when I do have the chance, I get so nervous and embarrassed that I don't know what to say.... I want to talk with you longer because I know that we don't talk for long...
Sometimes, I wonder why you chose to like me... Why me? Did you like me because you knew that I like you or, you liked me before I confessed to you? You answered that before, which was you did like me before I confessed to you...
But sometimes, I wonder what reasons why you chose to like me... You said I'm always happy, and energetic... You feel happy whenever you're around me... You said it was interesting, and that you're not bored... You said that my happiness spreads like a virus to everyone...
I always think about the reasons why you like me... and I think about why I liked you too...
I find it hard to believe that I'll get a boyfriend. But now that I have you... I still find it hard to believe that you're my boyfriend... Especially because that I really like you... I never thought that, that the guy that I really like, likes me back...
I love you. I really do love you. And all I want is for you to be happy. When you're happy, I'm happy. I want to be a good girlfriend. I want to show you that I really do love you and I want to cherish you.
Lately, I have so much dreams about you that I started to lose count... Maybe at least 10 dreams of you... Only 1 of them weren't good... because you told me that I should stop acting couple-ly because at that time, we weren't in a relationship... You said we should just be friends...
You're hard to read... You're not obvious... I can't read your mind... I don't know what you want... If you want something, you need to ask me or tell me... If you want me to know about something, then you need to ask me or tell me...
If you're not in a good mood, or you're at your downs, please know that I am always here for you. I am a very good listener and I'll always be here for you. I'll try my best to cheer you up and I'll always support you.
I guess it's hard since we're both shy about being in a relationship together...
I want you to know that the little things you do, are the big things that you do. Because the little things you do, always bring smiles to my face. I know that I smile a lot, but just know that when I do smile, it means that I'm really, really, really, extremely happy, that I can't express how much happy I am. To you, you may hear words, but these big, meaningful feelings comes out with it.
You make me feel happy that I can't contain my happiness. I love staring at your face because I want to remember your face, but when I do stare at you, you stare back at me, and straightaway I get embarrassed. This is why I stare at the ground... I get red and embarrassed whenever we make eye contact... But seeing your bright smile, your cheerful laughter, your happy face.... makes me really happy....
I wish I could tell you how I'm feeling but I don't want to freak you out... Ahahaha... We've been going out only more than a week now... Sigh.... Later in the future, I hope I can tell you that I have my own blog, and that I talk about you in them...
I love you~~~ And I will always~~
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