67. Hello Depression

I do not like being depressed. Being depressed makes me unhappy. I do not like being unhappy.
Sighhh.....

I have one more week left till uni, and that week is exams and assignments week only. I need to concentrate and study for my exams, but recently I had a huge, on-going headaches for 3 days. I was restless, sleepy, couldn't concentrate at all that I bludged 2 of my classes, and left an hr early for one of my tutorials. Because I haven't felt this sick in a while, I just needed some rest.

All I want is quiet and peace. I want to sleep, do not bother me, and do not talk to me. My mum did not help with that at all, and we had a fight again. Whenever she has mood swings, she really gets irritated, and because I wasn't feeling well, I shouted at her to not talk to me. Because her mood doesn't help me any better with my sickness. Sighhh....

My headaches lasted till three days, and during those days, I've been avoiding my mum and been talking to her less lately. When we did talk, she was frustrated at me. Can't be helped. If you bother me when I'm sick, I swear you're not helping yourself, or me, or anyone.

After my headaches were gone, I focused my whole day studying. I was literally making up for the day I didn't study, and my head hurts again...... I over did it too much....

It's funny how I missed my mum when she was gone. But when she came back, the house is loud again, and so meticulous everywhere that our house smells like swimming pool. I missed her and when I am at uni, I do miss her but.... she hasn't changed you know. Well so did I. Because we still didn't change, our normal ways are coming back. Back to when we have fights.....

When my mum was gone, I wasn't depressed that much. I felt lonely because I didn't have my mum. I missed her. But I felt happy when she was gone because yes I do have freedom outside, but no when it comes to taking care of the house. I guess I haven't felt that depressed when she was gone because we didn't have any fights thats why. Now that she's back, my gawddddd.... I swear to god.......... I even told her on the first day, the first day when she came back home, "Mum, let's not ever fight again." She replied, "Why would we?"

Yeah Mum WHY WOULD WE?!!! HUH?!!!!


- Hello Depression. Where have you been all this time???
- I've took a vacation in Korea. But now I'm back.
- Oh wow. So did my mum. Whata coincidence~ Did you guys go together or something?
- Hmmm.... Something like that.
- Screw you.